The Meaning of Christmas

Last year, as I sat with my #Mom on her death bed; I remember someone telling me to “Rely on my family to help me through it.” All that I could think in that moment, was “I don’t have a family.” For many reasons, in the natural, I was right. I hope that none of you will ever have to feel that way; but I know I’m not the only one. I didn’t have anyone to wear matching pajamas with, carry on #traditions with, or even exchange #presents with, today. I didn’t spend time with a single person that I share the same DNA with, today. I didn’t even see any of my church family, or my God-family, today. I wasn’t on anyone’s guest list, this side of Heaven. In the natural, no one wanted me.
Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m not writing this for anyone to feel sorry for me. Don’t send me some “Oh my gosh, if I would have known..” text. Or call me telling me how “important I am to you, it’s just that…you were with your family.” Just don’t. I’m not writing this for any of you, anyway.
This post is for the other people, who feel unwanted, who cried today, who’ve been rejected, or overlooked. because you felt alone. I’m writing this to tell you, that I understand. That this isn’t the first year that I’ve been in this very same spot. I used to sit and cry every single year. But this year, I decided to do something different. So today, I spent the day with someone else who didn’t have anyone. Instead of running to the tree looking for presents with my name on them …I made sure that there was a present for her to open. We ate good food, and talked. We celebrated Jesus’ birthday, together.
Again, don’t get me wrong. I’m not looking for anyone to pat me on the back, either. Please redirect any glory to the only One who truly deserves it.
But, everyone keeps posting about how family is what Christmas is all about. Every time you turn on the TV, or scroll through social media, it’s “FAMILY, FAMILY, FAMILY.” and this isn’t to bash any of my relatives, or anyone who does have a great family to spend the holidays with. In fact, I think family is amazing; and God willing, I look forward to having a family of my own someday.